８. If I should have a daughter...
Now I can divide my spoken-word journey into three steps.
Step one was the moment I said, "I can. I can do this."
Step two was the moment I said, "I will. I will continue.
I love spoken word. I will keep coming back week after week."
And step three began when I realized
I didn't have to write indignant poems,
if that's not what I was.
There were things that were specific to me,
and the more that I focused on those things,
the weirder my poetry got, but the more that it felt like mine.
It is tempting to keep writing the same poem,
or keep telling the same story, over and over,
once you've figured out that it will gain you applause.
It's not enough to just teach that you can express yourself.
You have to grow and explore and take risks and challenge yourself.
Now, I know that the number one rule to being cool is to seem unfazed, to never admit that anything scares you or impresses you or excites you.
Somebody once told me it's like walking through life like this. You protect yourself from all the unexpected miseries or hurt that might show up.
But I try to walk through life like this. And yes, that means catching all of those miseries and hurt, but it also means that when beautiful, amazing things just fall out of the sky,I'm ready to catch them.
Sometimes we are afraid to show ourselves, our true colors.
I know I am.
We can avoid the pain,
or accept it with all the beauty that comes along.
Thank you for reading and have a wonderful day :)